Friday, December 14, 2012

Being A Parent Can be Tough

I've already figured out being a parent means constant worry! If it isn't one thing it's another. For several months I've had concerns about Portlin's use of his arms and legs. I realize he is by no means severely delayed developmentally but I've noticed he doesn't bare weight on his limbs like I think he should. His regular pediatrician said there was no cause for concern but we saw the nurse practitioner the day after Thanksgiving and she suggested he be evaluated by first steps.

Portlin's evaluation went well but it means that we will have to take him from his current babysitter. It breaks my heart thinking about it. I know she loves Portlin and would never harm him intentionally but the environment his is in is not ideal for him and this point. He has been restricted way too much which has contributed to his slight delays. Since he shares time with older kids, the babysitter leaves him in his car seat most of the day to prevent the others from bothering him. While that sounds like a novel idea when you really think about it, he can't move and explore like he needs to in a car seat. After many attempts to change his daily activities, I've noticed I'm getting no where. His babysitter has a lot of experience and has kept many kids so the saying you can't teach an old dog new tricks is true in this instance. She thinks Portlin is too big and will develop when he wants to. I'm not ok with that. I will never settle for less when it comes to Portlin.

The PT gave me some suggestions as far as exercises to complete at home with him. He hates them but I think Portin can be a little lazy because he is such a content baby. Always happy until you make him stretch out of his comfort zone. Another part of his problem. I need someone who isn't afraid to make him cry now and then. I think his babysitter loves him too much because it's obvious she couldn't stand to see him upset yesterday.

I don't know what the future holds for Portlin but I know as a mom I'm going to do whatever I can to provide the best opportunities for my baby boy. I love him too much not to!